Being the youngest.

Everyone thinks being the youngest means you get super spoiled. Well hate to break it to you, but it is not true. Growing up you always have older siblings around to tease you or to pick on you, until everyone else leaves and you are the only one left at home. Sure being the only one at home has its nice moments like you get to go out to eat with your parents more, but it has more negative moments. You get so used to having someone around and all of the sudden no one else is there. There are a lot of days when I am home alone most of the days and don’t see my parents until that night. My first few years of high school I had one sister that was still living at home and she was usually the only one home when I would get home from school because my parents would be at work. She and I got really close but then she went up to BYU for school. All of a sudden I became the only child pretty much. It became super lonely and I started getting super sad and not wanting to do anything anymore. I would cry some nights because I missed her so much and missed just having someone there when I came home from school. As time passed I just learned to get used to not having someone around all the time. I never knew if I would come home from school to an empty house or if one of my parents would be home from work already. Just as I was getting used to all of this, my world had a little earthquake. My parents got a new calling in our church to go to another ward which is in the next city over. They still live at home but they are over there at least two times a weeks if not more for a few hours. So now instead of going to the same ward as my parents and spending Sundays with them I barely see them. This was very hard for me and is still very hard on me. At the time that they got this calling my dad was working from home most of the time but now he has a new job so he works out of the house a lot more. I had posted a picture onto Facebook with my dad and my aunt commented on it saying something like, “I bet you love being the youngest and spending so much time with your parents.” The realty of it though is that I feel like I never see my parents. There are some days that I wake up after they leave and go to bed before they get home. Every minute I get to spend with them I treasure because I never know when we will be able to spend time together again. So when people ask me if I like being the only won at home my answer is no.

This is a very old picture but it will have to do until we can get a new one.